me

2010-12-25T00:25:00.004+08:00

it's not bout the present, it's bout how you give it dude.

everyone in the house in sleeping.

great.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

2010-12-09T23:53:00.007+08:00

GAHHHH!

I MISS KOREA

!!!!!! :(

i miss cwj too.
i like guys more after they go through army, but im hating SAF like mad now >:(

2010-11-15T23:40:00.002+08:00

pw has finally come to an end.
WOOTS WOOTS WOOTS! :D
all the hard work has paid off (: but now i think i kinda miss my groupmates.
the times where we worked hard tgt.
when we were always late. when we ate tgt. when we laughed at each other while we rehearsed.
i miss you all now!!

ohyes, and i certainly miss all my other friends too.
so glad i saw eunice tday for a relatively long time (unlike the times when i see her for at most half an hour). i missed her so much!
glad im finally meeting bestie tmr. feel so guilty cause i havent gotten her birthday present(which is on 9 nov-whoops)
sigh my friends are all busy ppl.
seow rong toooooo! she's sooopppperrrrrrr busy!

For the next few days, i will have a lot of standard chartered volunteer stuff. and will be going to Cambodia to help the kids in kolap 4(an orphanage) the following week.
so people who actually read this, help the kids there please.
they don't even know that they should brush their teeth.
so we're gonna get them mugs toothbrush and toothpaste.
we're having an 'adopt a mug' campaign for the children. so guys, pleaseeeee adopt a mug for a child for $10.
pretty please.
hopefully, the environment there would be alright, so i wouldnt be too disgusted :x

lastly, i miss cwj so much :(
BMT sucks big time! argh.
i'm so looking forward to wednesday, SOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward.
so glad there's a public holiday if not i'll only be seeing him a month later.
grahhhh. sucks to even think of it.

REMINDER TO SELF:

get work done, and mug hard for next year.

it's the last year in hell! gotta make sure i get out with GREAT results.

2010-10-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

hey you reading my blog nowww.

I LOVE YOU !

2010-10-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

the word incompatible keeps popping up in my mind :/

it's kinda worrying.

trying to relive the dead. lol.

finally blogging again~

guess it's cause im feeling pretty stressed that i'm not feeling stressed bout pw and studies.

how ironic.

been ages since i posted.

it's the holidays! but there's actually no time to cheer. it's time to worry bout next year and the results i got for promos. they're pretty screwed, really.

i really have to focus on pw nowwwww! :(

&. though they're not gonna see this, i really like my pw mates.

wasn't close to them 'xcept for tanyanshan but im starting to like kaizhen and laura a lot.

thumbs up to lovely pw mates (Y)

grrr, and im so gonna miss cwj when he goes into army in 13 days!

2010-08-11T21:20:00.002+08:00

hoho,

im stressed.

sooooo busyyyyyy! :(

but there's an addition to my life (:

chayweijie, iloveyou (L)

2010-06-30T18:14:00.002+08:00

SCREW IT !

i wish a thousand times that i was out of this place.

what am i trying to achieve ~

NOTHING !?

wth

2010-06-28T20:47:00.001+08:00

1 paper SCREWED,

but, that's 1 paper DOWN!

how consoling ~

-.-

2010-06-20T23:34:00.005+08:00

I LOVE YOGURT !!! LOVE IT TO BITS ! :D

shopping with bestie turned out to be more of an eating spree :D

HELLO !

im here to save this dead blog of mine (:

then i'll have to start real mugging, though i've been sitting in front of the tv too often, recently.

updates bout my life:

had CO concert and i think we did pretty well.

am in this bio research programme that's making me damn stressed.

i finally caught ipman 2 in the theatres :D YAY (Y)

and i watched karate kid too (:

lastly : I NEED TO STUDY ~

one thing i really want : i wanna be RICH! like have shitloads of money :D
for all the preeeeetteeeee stuff !

all the shopping has made me crazy !! :D lolol.

2010-05-17T00:16:00.002+08:00

when i count my blessings, i count kor a hundred and one times.

thankyou for everyth (L)

tc in camp kay

2010-05-04T19:59:00.002+08:00

Aim : NOWHERE

it's cause there's no other way

all the mugging, is making me a boring girl D:

2010-04-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

this is why i love eunice sooo much !

she's just so sweet.

thanks (:

i really miss you. esp, the times in 4E together

presents

KIT KAT !

this is my new toy, from kor.

i'm so gonna miss you when you're in NS.

thankyou ! (:

2010-04-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

everyone is working hard,

so i should too;

but i hate being alone :(

why is it so difficult for me to communicate with some people.

why ?

not that it really affects me, but im puzzled by how i can't clique with people.

but i can be really close to some.

womannnnnnnnnnnnn, i miss you !

2010-04-10T00:23:00.003+08:00

i'd shed buckets full of tears if it would solve all my problems.

~
it's no longer alright for me to type anything i want.

can't express everyth i'm feeling now,
but i just wanna get over all these,
FAST!

2010-04-05T21:05:00.005+08:00

hohoho !

i feel accomplished :D

cause,

I DID MOST OF MY HOMEWORK ! during the weekend (:

i'm gonna work on my vocab practice with words i've never seen;

bigotry

sanguine

loquacious

im gonna find out what they mean and remember them, YEA :D

mmm, sometimes i wonder,

why is it so hard to talk to some people.

am i not friendly enough ?

ohwell ~

i miss taking the train, with you.

i bought a lollipop today (L)

2010-03-28T22:39:00.003+08:00

omg,

STRESSED !!!

should have transferred to a poly, totally :(

pw srsly sucks :(

***

how i wish things weren't like that.

maybe we moved on too fast.

was thinking, if i considered, maybe we would have a better ending.

i wanna hide in a corner,

sink deep into disappointment, emptiness and devastation,

with silent cries, and tears

god knows how much this has affected me.

i seem alright on the outside, but am i?

i srsly hope, i get over it and let go soon -

i desperately needa get things done, all the work and PW.

the attention i have to give to everything except what's occupying me now.

i don't blame them, but..

man, this sucks.

and thankyou kor, bestie, woman and seowrong for standing by me.

lastly, i wanna thank you.

be strong kay, let it go~

2010-03-26T00:44:00.001+08:00

i'm so very reluctant.

mood: sad

sorry

i'm sorry it's all i can say.

2010-03-19T00:16:00.004+08:00

i never thought so,
but now,

CHEMISTRY SUCKS !
*frowns.

why the hell is it so difficult to understand!

other than chem and sucky grades,
im overall : HAPPY (:

from ytd,
from tday,
and days to come. (hopefully)

and i am so happy victoria's my bestie :D

though i doubt she still reads my blog.
nonetheless, im so glad you're here, vic (L)

2010-03-14T16:29:00.004+08:00

HOLIDAYS ! (:

it's just 1 pathethic week, but better than none yea ?

at least i don't have to wake up at 6 every morning.

butttt, the sad thing is that

i am DAMN BUSY :(

mon to wed - CO camp and bio make up lecture.

fri - PA

sat - kill a mockingbird play

sun - CO concert.

busy busy :/

sorry kor, and umm, nicky that i can't make time for you kay :/

i am very very sorry.

hsun, i know it's been hard on you, im really sorry that that's all i can do, apologise.

it's better to get over it, srsly.

im not the one for you.

but you're definitely a nice and good guy and boyf (?)

anw, i hope you cheer up.

oh and kor, goodluck! :D

hope you get the faculty and course you want.

i am VERY VERY MOTIVATED to get into the same uni as you 2 years later. heh

and,

MY RESULTS SUCK BIG TIME !

like seriously, i am NOT exaggerating (i wish i was)

maths - E (failed)

chem - SUBPASS (failed)

GP - passed by the 'skin of the teeth'

SUCKS right :(

and i can predict i'll fail econs too.

girl, buck-up!

i need someone to motivate me,

hopefully, you would come along to be my motivation (L)

you make me smile ~

2010-03-08T22:59:00.001+08:00

YAY (Y)

the movie was great ! :D

so was the person i watched it with. thanks (:

2010-02-21T19:34:00.003+08:00

it's been ages since a posted.
i'm getting too lazy.

some time ago, when i still had bangs.
now, i think i look better with them :x

school's been busy, and there're 3 tests coming up next week :/
STRESSED. there are just so many things that i can't get.
ugh.
plus i screwed up my MPS interview on friday, cause i was half an hour late.

but on a lighter note, valentine's day and cny was GREAT (:
watched valentine's day with js (who isnt my boyf). i really wish people would stop thinking too much when they see a guy and girl tgt. well, maybe cause it's like vday -.-

then had 4E steamboat dinner (: i want the class photos !
yes, i totally love 4E. i totally miss 4E too. and mr zong!
4E outing soon soon soon kay !
hopefully everyone would not be too occupied with PW by then :/

CHINESE NEW YEAR !
totally love it, though i lost at gambling. lol.
stayed over at my cousins' place on the first day, visiting on the 2nd then lan-l4d2.
i never knew it was so fun, but i srsly suck at it.
it's like everytime i'm the zombie i'll be dead before doing anyth. lol.sucks.
mmm, then karaoke-d till 2plus am, and we had kfc that night :/
when i went back to sch, wen zhong and sze fan claimed i look fatter, that my stomach looked bigger. ugh! fine, i gained weight.
i srsly feel like whacking them ><
esp, tan wen zhong!

ohhh, and i played l4d with cousins ytd (Y)
it's srsly fun, and i swear, i'm improving ! i actually hit someone. lolol.
yepp, had fun, but felt kinda guilty cause my parents were starting to get angry at 2plus am so you all had to go tgt with me :/
yea, and had to trouble my cousin's cousin to send me all the way back to cck.
it was super not on the way :/
so i'm gonna apologise to susu again, i know you read my blog sometimes,
susu, sorry! :D

your cousin is so well mannered, horhhhhx.

haha, and yea, it's kinda funny how i've known you all my whole life but you all don't know where i stay and have only been to my house for like once?
bad bad bad.
but, then again, i'm sure you all dunno where melvyck kor kor stays!

mmm,
back to school tmr, so i'm going to bed soon, SO DAMN SHAG cause i reached home at 3 ytd
and had to wake up early tday.
gdnight (:

ohh, and you FOUR !

i miss you all loads loads loads.
seow rong, woman and bestie, yea, i still see you all in school.
but we no longer have time to really talk to each other or have fun tgt anymore.
it's like everyone is so occupied, with all your outings with ppl, with ventures, with 4H and bunnies, in addition to all the work we have. sigh.

kor, i know you've been mapling a lot. and you're going into the army soon :(
i'm definitely gonna go ice skating with you, take neos at your fav machine, play pool, catch a movie with you before you go in. i'll try my best to fulfill all, but at least a few kay.

i miss chicken too :/
you're supposed to call me during the weekends you know!
and i bet you don't even read my blog. stupid!

(L) you all.

2010-01-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

my weekend was perfect, apart from the 3 hours of chem with sr.
went for pa on sat morning,
shopped at bugis in the noon,
mahjong in the night,
even met and got him to accompany me home (Y)
great yea ? haha.
did chem with sr in the morning, omg, can't imgaine studying for THREE LONG HOURS even though it wasnt the exam period.
the chem homework is terrible, srsly. sucks ! every week's gonna be like that,
FOR 2 YEARS !
*groans*

oh wells, then went shopping. (it's gonna be the last time i really shop before the hols, i swear)
hmmm, i want the kate spade wallet, purple base with chilli red sides.
it's so CHIO!
*hint hint*

oh wells,
this is a really boring post but i dont care i've nth to do now, and i like to rant.
it's been ages since i really went out with a guy (Y)

i wish kor was still in rv.

it hurts, but so what ?

2010-01-14T22:03:00.002+08:00

i tell you,

i hate jc life.

tday was the first day i see people doing maths during breaks, when it isn't the exam period.

i can forsee myself being like them.

and all these sucks.

i can alr feel the stress that is so gonna build up, sky high, for the next 2 years :(

it's making me sleep and time deprived. lol.

kor told me,

in jc, it's everyone for him/herself. and i think it's very true (at least for now).

it totally sucks, makes me feel damn screwed.

damn shag.

the optimistic side,

it's only the 4th day, maybe when i get to know my classmates better,

we'll all open up, be great friends, mug tgt, and remain as really good friends for the rest of our successful lives.

but will that really happen.

hopefully.

on a lighter note,

i think my classmates are fine, they are actually pretty fun and nice(:

except a few of them.

oh wells, i just gotta pray hard that they won't be in my pw group

***

if you're ignoring me for good, tell me the reason.

wth am i so bothered by it.

2010-01-01T21:57:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! :D
it's 2010 ! i can finally cancel my m1 plan and stop wasting 30 bucks every month (:
great (: so the 81889029 number will no longer be in use if you laggers still have the number, delete it ! (:
hmmm, had countdown at bf ytd, well, it was more fun than expected. heh
we missed counting !
we were like rushing up to the rooftop to look at the fireworks,
and we were looking around trying to get the time right, then the fireworks came.
OH MANZZZ :/
oh wells, the fireworks were pretty nice and i generally had a not-too-bad time. hahs

my new year resolutions for 2010 !
1. work hard and get good grades (being the academically concerned rvhs student) haha
2. stop skipping CO practices. i wanna get in syf you know
3. stop spending money on redundant stuff and what's not. but i really want those coloured contacts. damn it, why do i have perfect eyesight. i dont have an excuse to get those coloured contacts like that :(
4. pack my room and do housework without being told to do so. so i'm gonna start with packing the table.
5. to stop thinking about what i shouldn't. it's really hard you know :/
6. blend in with my new class. hopefully it's full of fun people.
7. be a good girl and stop pissing my parents off.
8. complete all the homework ! that's very impt, and to start off, i better complete my gp hw from 2009. haha.
9. DIET ! or at least stop eating buffets so often. mmm, and try to jog a little more often. hopefully it'll help.
10. be a nice girl and stop being too critical about ppl.

well, i can't possibly list out all but that's bout all. heh.

it hurts to see you two, but i'll get over it ,
i'm sure i will.

2009-12-30T21:31:00.004+08:00

i need fun programmes for tmr night !
i need a date,
someone, date me, i want a girl !

a pang of jealousy hit me in the stomach.
that empty feeling, i realised, is jealousy.
i asked myself why,
liking you seemed to be the answer.
however, i asked myself if i really did,
and the answer seemed to be no.
and i hope it's true,
cause it's all out of my reach now.

2009-12-28T13:13:00.002+08:00

i don't wanna think of unhappy stuff.
so,
KOREA :D
you know what,
it's such a nice place.
the people there are just SOO kind, that you start to feel ashamed of singaporeans.

this shop was closing for the day, and we were finding a place to seat, wanting to get food.
as we were looking arnd, an a-jun-ma offered us to sit at the seats at their shop (even though they were closing for the day)
she even offered water to us.

would you find any shopkeeper like that in sg ?
no. people would just tell you to go off cause they are closing.
offer water ? NEVER. you'd have to pay for water.

i'm lazy to carry on.
anw, korea's a great place with great snacks( and i mean snacks, not food).
haha.
there was great shopping too, but we didn't have enough time.
bought really few stuffs, maybe xcept their facial masks and cosmetics.
it was like a cosmetic paradise.

p/s. people, i'm sorry i couldnt get souvenirs for you all :/
forgive me alright.

alright, i gotta go unpack my luggage !

2009-12-28T13:11:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling empty.
and i think
it's cause of you.

come back soon.

2009-12-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

bye, num bag, bye, coloured contacts, bye shopping.
a kind-hearted soul returned my wallet but wasn't kind enough to leave the money in it.
sigh, lost $110.
boo, i saw this really pretty kate spade wallet that i really want :/
EMO.
(it's a bright green one, hints hints) lol.

oh, and looks like my parents have to burn another hole in their pocket :/
my microimplant was taken out tday, cause it came loose and was hurting like crazy.
there was an injection before taking it out, so it didn't hurt much (:
fortunately.
there's another option, but ughhh, i dunno :(

well, on a lighter note, i'll be off to korea on sunday.
WHEEEE :D i'm sooooo looking forward to it (:
think i'd be freezing but i can't wait for the theme parks, shopping, cold weather and skiing.
YAY :D
but, i gotta start packing, like srsly START !

on a much happier note,
i got to know him. grins :D

*
mmm, thanks js for being there while i cried, whined and made a fuss.
thanks for taking the trouble (:

kor, sorry for any unhappy stuff i caused you to feel.
no matter what, you'll be a brother to me, yea ? (:

2009-12-02T10:21:00.003+08:00

THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES, PRESENTS AND THE TIME YOU ALL SPENT WITH ME ! :D

thank you (:

heh, you all weren't the first, my parents were :D haha. (except those who wished me a day before) but they don't count ! haha.

had a fun time with evilprince then with mr zong and supposingly 4E ( but only 7, including me came) haha.
HAD A GREAT TIME :D
and now, i'm a little sunburnt but i didn't get the tan i want, i need tanning oil. lol, gotta tan my fatty tummy, so it wouldn't look half bad. haha.
and my mum got me the cake i once told her i wanted as a surprise. a birthday cake is impt to me kay ! haha. and it's DAMN nice (: or at least i like it alot alot alot :D
haha, and my birthday red packets :D grins, i feel a little richer.
and i wanna specially thank mr zong for being such a nice teacher and treating us to swensens ice cream :D mr zong, i swear, i didn't ruin your reputation that badly, must forgive me :D haha.
yea, just had a great time altgt (:
`the few photos taken won't be up anytime soon. heh
*
i'm really sorry :(

2009-11-23T12:22:00.003+08:00

i tend to blog when i'm bored.

hmmm, first i would like to apologise to seow rong for not being able to make it down to the cathay today, cause i gotta work !

hey, i suggest you better go down SOON ! haha, i'm telling you on my blog, cause i presume you would be bored, so i'm dedicating part of my post to you kay, ain't i nice ? lol.

anw, yea, i'm working at this place where ppl take photos. lol. was the photographer's assistant on saturday and today till friday i'm working as the receptionist.

ohh, so boring right :/

but at least it's a job though the pay isn't at all good. hmmm, still i gotta thank js for getting the job for me (:

haha, and while i'm happily blogging here, he's moving heavy stuff in the studio. heh.

NOTE TO ALL :

my birthday is in 9 days :D (counting today)

i want :

a new wallet

a new backpack

build a bear

havaianas - the one victoria has but blue base

coloured contacts, i tore mine :/

pretty pretty stuff. lol.

yay, me wants presents ! (:

hmmmm, he left and somehow, i'm missing him. lol.

i've been kinda ignoring him but, i still regard him as a good friend though i don't really show it. so yea,

i'm sorry for all that i've done and how i've treated you :/

take care kays.

heh, it's the 4th week of holidays ! time to complete homework yea ?? i dont wanna rush it out in the end ! :/

it's time i stop procrastinating.

so, someone, motivate me to do my work, please (:

hahs, yea, 4 weeks without really meeting up with friends. like shit.

met up with 4E guys for pool though, kinda fun, though i totally SUCK. heh.

but,

i miss eunice ! like she misses me too ><

haha, you luh, go overseas so many times for what !

yay, when you're back, we'll go for my fav, McValue Lunch ! :D lolol, and catch movies tgt.

AND MY PICNICCCCCCC !

speaking of picnic ! VICTORIA ! you're flying of to japan tonight yea.

WHERE IS MY PICNIC !? hahs.

you all, better do what you all promised me kay ! ><

eunice, enjoy your cruise and don't think too much.

vic, enjoy hokkaido and tokyo ! rmb my souvenirs kay (;

hmmmm, and you know what, i think i'm getting over the 45 range alr :/

die, been eating damn alot recently, dunno why also.

when i was working at ntu, i spammed mac

then ytd i spammed buffets. lol. had porridge buffet in the morning then at night had this brazilian buffet.

it was OH MY GOD, SO DAMN GOOD (:

at united square; Brazilian fiesta or soemthing like that.

the meat, was so so so good (:

their cheese bread and banana fritters too.

hahs, yeaa, so i am getting FAT !

everyone says i look fine('xcept edmund, and my parents who calls me Fatty) but actually i dont :(

heh, back to work ~

2009-11-18T23:48:00.005+08:00

what have i been up to for the past few umm, weeks :x

1. 4E chalet ! it was G.R.E.A.T yea, Absolutely Awesome ! :D no pics cause no one brought a cam xcept me, but as usual, i was, LAZY (:

2. chopped my hair, although i kinda like it, i still miss my side fringe somehow.

yea, my side fringe.

i take ages to type a post, so now

not in the mood to blog anymore.
i feel frogged up.

oh yea, me, the slow-poke, doesnt know how to use twitter. lol.
what a joke, who doesnt.

it's like roller coaster, it goes up and down.
i used to think i could control my feelings and thoughts, but actually i can't, i suck at it
i used to think i was happy, but actually it's just the surface.
deep down, it's empty.
or maybe i'm just saying so cause i'm down.
who knows.
*
sometimes, i crave for attention and love. (yours especially)

2009-10-30T22:43:00.008+08:00

The Last Day In School with 4ETC'09

i remember hating 3E a lot last year, then i grew to like it.

now, i love 4E loads, but we're alrdy leaving, taking different paths.

the times we spent together,

talking, having fun and GOSSIPING (points at jz).

i love and will definitely miss you all.

and of course the lovely teachers who bring laughter and joy to the class (:

thanks 4Etc'09, i'll definitely miss you guys.

esp,

eunice, jillian, rachel, yat hei, ck, tzz, cy, yc, thanks for all the times in 3/4E.

loves

Class Lunch.

really had loads of fun (:

thanks mr zong for the treat, he treated 35 of us you know !! he's such a great teacher ><

mmm, we built a bear for him, called Kelvinz (:

it's damn fun building a bear !

i want one for my birthday !

heh, you bring me there, you build with me, you pay then you give it to me ! :D

preferably, it'll be a surprise ><

teehee, i really want one (:

can't wait for class chalet.

2009-10-22T21:38:00.007+08:00

IDOL !
lol, went to watch idol live at Mediacorp on yesterday.

didn't upload the malaque one cause i look TOOOO screwed. lol.
it was so damn high there (: damn cooooool !
we screamed our throats hoarse but it was still damn fun ! (:
and Charles remembers me :D lol, actually, he just found eunice and i familiar -.- haha
hope we get tickets for next week, then i get to see charles again (:
tabitha asked for eunice's number (: hope she gets back to her, and gives us the tickets ! >< .

TODAY ! had post exams activities - fencing.
lol, we had to move in a really funny way.
it was fun, though not as much as i expected.
then had subway (as usual) and headed to AWARE.
today, yen was there ! (: missed her. lol, she's so funny ! (:
slacked then home home
.
kor, she left, but you still have me kays.
remember, mei will be here when you need me.
cheer up >.<
and study for your A levels kays.
promise me you will, please.
all the best (:
loveslots (L)
.
.

you want me to be around, but it's okay if i'm not.
right ?

2009-10-19T19:36:00.008+08:00

GREAT (:
i've finally got my lovely new phone (:
samsung omnia pro, it's pretty copper bronze (: and has great functions (:
woots woots (:
though the cam is like 3.2 mp as compared to my innov8 which is 8 mp, it seems as clear.
oh wells, i'm still perfectly contented,it's fun msging too (:
so anyone, if you wanna talk to me, drop me a msg kays.
i'd definitely reply you, even if it's just for the sake of it (: teehee.

but one thing bout my phone that disappoints me is,
it's inability to transfer files conveniently :/
unlike my other phone, just plug in the usb asapter and lo and behold files can be transferred,
but now, i cant :(
gotta install programs or take out the memory card.
VERY TROUBLESOME.
.
hols are just round the corner.
gotta find work !
so ppl, if you have jobs out there , tell me kays ! (:

jealousy
makes me spiteful
makes me pissed
makes me sad
makes me cry
makes me feel stupid
makes me hate you

haha, all in all, it's a sucky feeling.
sorry that i've made you feel all those.
.
anw, today,
i met kor, in the midst of all his mugging ( you better mug hard for A levles kays ! ) ,
to have breakfast, play pool, have lunch and take neos.
neos was his idea, it always is. haha.
aww, our fav machine is gone :/
had happymeal at macs, played with maple syrup like a kid (: haha.
then pool. whee, i won 3 games out of 6 kays !

that's a great feat considering i haven't played pool for ages. heh.
then i has my fav indian food, NAAN :D yummy.
then neos and headed to imm to meet ck and cy. hahs.
the ride on 143 was UBER LONG < style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align="center">

haha, dao face (: yay, ugly betty !

hahs, kor, study hard and cheer up kays (:
forget estella, there are other stars ! ~

heh, had fun with ck and cy.

ajisen ramen was yummy (:i like ck's ramen ! !
the nan kotsu one.
it's actually just pork plus cartilage,
sounds eww, but in fact it's DAMN NICE :D
lol, i sound damn suaku. haha (:

chicken and chong yan

heh, look at them, SO RETARDED ! :D
it took me a long time to get this picture of them kays >.<

***

i can't wait for wednesday (:

2009-10-16T01:59:00.005+08:00

a normal day at school,
a normal day to AWARE,
with the mindset of doing CIP for AWARE,
we went to gv at great world city,
watched The Blue Mansion,
and
it turned out to be,

yes, nice pretty pictures of us (: lol
.
.
.

YAY ! :D

he's cute right ! OMG ! NAT HO !!

A GREAT DAY ! :D
thanks to woman (:
i'll start watching idol, i totally will.
i swear.
they're just so nice !
and, charles is so cute yea ? lol.

i look DAMN screwed, but still, i'm very very happy :D
can't wait (L)

2009-10-10T06:31:00.002+08:00

lol, it's so early.
hello hello. finally it's saturday :)
thank god this weekend will be less stressful than the last one though i still gotta study :/
mmm, the usual rants.
yes, i'm tired.
i've got sore throat.
i feel sad.
i suck at bball- very much. haha.
1 more,
i'm determined to not care.
i'll not bother you.
great ? sorry for being bothersome.
lol, bothersome sounds weird.
oh wells.
sorry, i can't help but feel shitty, even if it's cause of nothing. heh.
toodle doo, i'm falling asleep.
good morning :)
sleep tight :)

2009-10-06T22:29:00.002+08:00

7 papers down ! yay :D but,

there's EIGHT MORE.

great right :/

every sub 2 papers. was reading my cousin's blog talking bout PSLE which i think starts tmr. sigh. PSLE was so so so relaxing, comparatively. or it was alrdy quite relaxing at that time but wth, exams now are like, DAMN STRESSING.

tmr, maths paper 1.

thurs, la and 2 phy papers.

fri, 2 bio papers.

next mon, CID 4 paper and lit paper 2.

then it's OVER OVER OVER. however, it's still too too early to start feeling joyous that my exams are actually ending soon.

i'll take this opportunity to whine bout chem.

wth wth wth.

it's like frogging screwed screwed screwed :(

it's so crappy and difficult luh. like paper 1 was alrdy frogging difficult plus paper 2 with all those sucky conditions bout cracking and substition reaction, addition reaction, nickel catalyst, yada yada yada. . . i didn't write any of the conditions correctly and didn't read the questions carefully too. OMGGG :( whines whines whines.

damn, i really suck :/

ARGHHHHH.

oh man, i should seriously not waste my time but i can't help it. i gotta get done with PHYSICSSSS.

shitass :/

anw, good luck to all (:

2009-09-24T21:15:00.002+08:00

i just wanna wish all my beloved friends:

ALL THE BEST and GOOD LUCK for eoys.
6 days to it.
work hard now, and we'll be able to play hard after it (:
jia you, don't be too stressed.

vic, dont be too stressed kays (: A1 for bio and everything else, GO GO GO :D
woman, jia you (: you still can catch up with revision (:
seow rong, you can always do it, we all know you can. jia you.

let's mug hard kays (:

2009-09-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

today,
i feel like giving up.

2009-09-14T21:11:00.002+08:00

i haven't touched the come for a week. whoa. feel so so so out of touch.
holidays are over.
what did i do over the past week ?
well, i was a good girl and did my hw on monday.
i studied a little on tuesday too, with js (:
then dental dental and more dental. extracted 3 premolars - 4 injections. OUCHIES.
caught The time traveler's wife with woman (: great :D they changed the ending though. much happier ending (:
congratulations to teo shun xiang who is officially an OFFICER (:

hmmm, yea, so now, back to school.
18 days to eoys. OMG ! i'm so stressed out, but i'm doing anything. shit ass.
MUGGG >.<

braces tmr. ..

2009-09-04T17:33:00.006+08:00

i dunno why the hell must she keep doing these.
does it make her feel happier.
NO. she jolly well know it doesn't.
SO WHY BOTHER INVADING MY PRIVACY.
why can't i choose.
it's my life, NOT yours.
i've a cut and enough bruises.
get off my back, i beg you.

sorry.
that's all i can ever say.
apologise apologise and apologise, but i never make it better, but continue causing trouble.

i'm very afraid and this is all i can do.
avoid.

sigh.

physically, it hurts.
inside, it's tearing me apart.

the irritation, anger, sadness.

FUCK

2009-08-30T23:23:00.001+08:00

~~move on in life~~
~~throw away all the past~~
~~i guess if it's past to you, it should be for me.~~

but i wanna safekeep all those and live in them.
i can't help it :(

TODAY :D
went to vic's place to study and exercise, in the end , i think we spent most of the time talking and EATING. her house has TONNES of yummy food :D heh.
thanks vic, for the hospitality.
JIA YOU WITH MUGGING :/
yea, so i didn't do much today, but enjoyed it.

kor, hope you had fun today :D i'll remember to never go to fish and co with you (:

you know, i could just sit there and stare at your oh so cute face,
but i just dont have the chance.

P.S. SORRY to those i've neglected.

i realised friends are disappearing, but what matters are those we are here for me now (:
though i kinda miss them, somehow.

2009-08-26T23:18:00.001+08:00

why do people still wish, when they know wishes don't come true ?

2009-08-18T21:51:00.003+08:00

OMG.
lit test tmr. bio, chem skill 3 and chinese cheng yu test on thursday.
someone just kill me :/ STRESS YOU KNOW !
haha, i love victoria. take care kays.
remember to drink more water and take your medicine. i'm a nagging aunty. whatever (:
ohh, and i think yuting has a very nice voice. lol, so stalkerish.
SHE IS MY PET ! :D

***
it's like tug of war
the rope snapped, but it was knotted back after much effort.
the game carried on.
but this time,
i pull you to me,
and you pull back, pushing yourself away.
yes, that's what you do.
and yet, you don't seem to bother,
whether i do or don't.
you just push way back,
and
i pull on.

i don't wanna carry on with the game.
i'm getting so tired,
i've no energy left.

show me you care, if you would.

2009-08-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

oh no
in 14 hours, i'll be in msm studio 5 taking my piano exam.
shucks , i seriously hope i don't fail anything but aural.
I HATE AURAL !

luck come to me , please.

WOMAN ! good luck for lit tomorrow (: so as to all the other year 4 elit students (:
tips please :D

***
it's time to let go ?

i'm too tired to do anything, all the things stressing and killing me slowly;
losing those whom i care.
i'm sick of wondering.crying.being emotional.
but it's all i can do.

you said you care, but seriously, do you ?
maybe, some time ago. you did.

i am tired.

2009-08-11T19:31:00.009+08:00

updates :

NATIONAL DAY 2009 ! :D

the sky is SO PRETTY :D look at the singapore flag (:

WE PLEDGE OURSELVES AS ONE UNITED PEOPLE !

me, jing siang, edmund.

trust me to still be reading .MUGGER :D haha. that's me and js.

SINGAPORE ! :D

me and bin. me and jason

pretty fireworks ! :D

BFY ! (:

was at merlion park with bfy looking at fireworks. SO PRETTY (: had lots of fun (:

YAY ! :D

AWARE FLAG DAY on 0n 080809

whoa , we were so tired from all the standing. but we shopped at far east. yayness ! :D
awww, claudia left early to meet her mum :/ no pictures of her.

and ION orchard ROCKS. just very crowded...

eunice and victoria (:

***

why did all those change and become like that ?

you don't know how i feel since you've been ignoring me.

remind me of the times we were so close;

in class, in perth, going to school tgt early in the morning, going for lunch, catching a movie.

when you would still hug me.

imy.

2009-08-07T22:22:00.013+08:00

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS (:

4ETC !

you my people my home
our lives defend and uphold
may the love we achieve as one nation, be shared with the world ~

this is home, truely
where i know i must be,
where my dreams wait for me,
where the river always flows~

COUNT ON ME SINGAPORE , COUNT ON ME SINGAPORE, COUNT ON ME TO DO MY BEST AND MORE.
TOGETHER SINGAPORE, SINGAPORE ~!~

haha, i kept singing,
where i belong ,
where i keep my heart and soul
where dreams come true for us
where we walk together hand in hand
TOWARDS A FUTURE SO BRIGHTTTT !
where i belong~!~
too. heh (: i am SUPER PATRIOTIC !
I AM PROUD 2 BE SINGAPOREAN !
SMILES :D

haha , was still busy rushing chinese homework after the celebrations. look at the hardworking me, right there. lol lol (:

stephanie, jia rong , eunice , me (: stephanie, jia rong , me

then we took photos. lol. like traffic light right ! :D haha. then after that i was DAMN DAMN HIGH :D was acting ostrich and playing football (: WOOTS ! yong en took videos and you can't believe how retarded i was. i forbid yong en to show it to anyone !!!

AFTER celebrations (:

we ate at the jap, marche-like place called SHOKUDO at heeren. heh (:

look at my bowl of rice, it's the smallest ! i was saving for my dessert. lol.

my macha shake that they keep koping ! >.<

laughs. WE ALL LOOK SPASTIC ! don't kill me kays. i look bad in the photos too >.<
hah , we spent alot of time at the arcade exercising :D
heh. ddr, arcade hoops, drums, guitar hero, para. lol. i played some U.S army military training shooting game too (: heh. went to plaza sing blah blah. i was freaking high :DD
singing patriotic songs (L)
hahaha (:
vic left :(
blah blah, then seow rong and i WALKED to shaw centre to eat YUMMY STUFF :D (it was DAMN TIRING)
but, it was worth it (:

me seow rong

the macarons at CANELE are SO SO SO MUCH better than bakerzin.
i only tried hazelnut and passionfruitmilkchocolate at CANELE and it tasted at least 10000000 times better ! totally rocked. and the pretty MACHA cake in the photo (: totally rocks too.
VERY DAMN NICE >.< haha , there's a bite off the cake in the pic cause we had to try whether it's yummy enough to be worth pictures ! :D haha, actually , i just forgot to take a photo and suddenly decided to do so (:
hahs, and thank you seow rong for treating me and bringing me there (:
loves (L)

all in all,
I HAD A GREATTTTTT TIME TODAY ! :D
(even the bus ride was fun)
though i didn't get to watch UP. i so wanna watch it !
***
ugh, i forgot bout12:34:56 :/

2009-08-07T00:14:00.003+08:00

HURRAY ! :D i'm finally done with the basic stuff of this DAMN-ED TEMPLATE ! what the frog, it was like SYMBOLS just now. hurray hurray hurray. i'm feeling ecstatic that it is finally done. WOOTS (:

whoops , but i changed my tag board and those tags before 6.08.09 are all gone :/ boo. to think people were telling me they read my blog. laughs. thanks thanks. i'm SOOPER greatful (:

oh yes, i have decided to use FROG instead of fish cause it is original. i'm a girl with originality kays ! :D laughs. SOOPER is a great word to use too ! :D i've never come across people who use that. lol lol. i suddenly typed that while lame-talking with vic and i think is CUTE.
it is right ?! :D hehe.

i can't wait for tomorrow.
it's the NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATIONS !
haha , i love singapore (L)

***
i'm waiting for 12:34:56 ><

2009-08-04T22:11:00.005+08:00

wow. it's been ages since i updated . haha (: sorry vic who has been faithfully visiting my blog everyday XP here's an update :D but i srsly doubt anyone would visit this blog 'cept you, victoria , okay , maybe eunice sometimes ? haha.

okay , it's time to start counting down for my grade 7 piano exam.
9 DAYS TO PIANO EXAM !

oh no oh no. HOW !? i know it's too late to start panicking but i am NOW :/ boo :( and there are so many tests next week. although thankfully , chem and bio has been postponed to week 8. how. EOYS are coming soon ! according to vic and 4H it's like 56 days more ONLY. HOW ?
zhenzhi is so VERY stressed. cries out loud. someone please save me. . .
hahs, i'm getting so paranoid.

oh yes, now i shall start on my wonderful day. BOO :( mr zong is gonna have mc for a week or so cause he has appendicitis :( get well soon mr zong ! i know you read blogs ! >.<

clarinet , saxophone or flute ?

pick pick pick.

i don't know which to choose though i dont even know if i'll get in but i wanna make a choice first ! :D heh. saxophone is damn cool ! :D ( like how that i-forgot-his-name but with black hair guy in bof played it) SO SO SO CUTE ! ^^

SIGN UP TO BE MY POTENTIAL BOYFRIEND .
guys ( i wouldn't mind girls too) , you can start signing up. (on facebook) write on my wall to sign up (indicate that you wanna sign up as my potential bf, please) , or leave me a message. http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=558184246&ref=profile (here's the link)
tyvm ! :D

lol lol, that sounded totally retarded. hahaha :D just joking yea (:

2009-07-24T21:31:00.002+08:00

i don't wanna accept it , but in the end i still have to. have i actually accepted this fact, i don't know.
roxanne, i'll miss you.
take care <3

***
trying to keep it at the back of my mind , but someday , i'll have to face it and be reminded that you're here no more. (at least till 3 years later)
:'(

2009-07-19T17:00:00.002+08:00

sentosa (: lol, with rox, freda, sr and friends.
mmm, was kinda bored but it's still fun i guess. lol. attempted to learn vball but i FAILED ! XD

***
when i just can't help but break down.

2009-07-09T22:21:00.004+08:00

we used to take time for granted , till now. we know, we can't anymore :/
when no amount of tears can change the fact, we'll just have to accept it. UGH :(
i'll miss you and remember all the sweet, bitter, salty and sour memories we had together.
love :'/

2009-07-08T17:28:00.004+08:00

ohmygod, it's so sweet (: awww.

Lucas Till , HOT ! :D but he's more of cute and sweet in the mv (:
haha, woman, i love this mv *inserts msn heart (L)*

2009-07-02T20:12:00.003+08:00

MAC'S GARLIC CHILLI IS BACK ! YIPEE YAY YAY ! :D I LOVE GARLIC CHILLI ! :D

mmm, the first week of school , was alright , there's still tmr , but till now it's alright, just tiring. been dreaming every night . DAMN DAMN SHAG , dreaming is the tired-est activity. you wake up and find that you haven't slept a wink. sigh.

yepp, school has reopened , i should stop my silly acts, get a hold on myself and STOP .
i dreamt that - told me ' i miss you' and i was actually really happy. lol. how much more retarded can i get. yea , forget those and get back to the real world.

ME WANTS THE NUM BLACK BOSTON BACKPACK !
would a kind soul get it for me ? pleaseeeee (:
`there's a sale now. if you wanna get it for me , hurry ! :D it's the black one with pretty gold 'num'. haha.
thank you very much.

2009-06-24T08:43:00.003+08:00

YAY :D 2D outing yesterday was more of a success than a failure , i guess. laughs. some didn't go and i don't know why. sry that i don't have ppl's contacts :X mmm, anw, we played ball and badminton so i'm tanned again -.- then we went bowling and pool (: hahs, i suck at both :D anw , vic , i'm super sorry that you gotta sit there doing nth :/ sorry sorry. should've gone to vivo earlier then we could have played ddr. in the end, i didn't get to play ddr also :( gahh ! been wanting to play since last week. heh , pity ck. lol.lol. he keeps getting bullied XD oh , we didn't take pictures :(

mmm, zhenzhi should remind herself to stop saying anything. i gotta make decisions properly so as to not burden ppl. and my dad says it's what it takes to be a doctor. haha (:

work sucks , as usual :

2009-06-16T21:12:00.002+08:00

bball, pool and bowling today :D
grahh , i've blisters on my toes :(
OUCH ! :(

mmm, looks like i'll never ever get to watch DRAG ME TO HELL and GHOST OF GIRLFRIEND'S PAST.
"it takes one to give and another to receive" kor , i realised, it's so true :\

grahh , and now i've to download maple cause my dad refuses to let me use the desktop. STUPID ! waste the double exp time. SHITZXZXZX !

2009-06-10T21:49:00.004+08:00

my RED shoulder !

I NEED ALOE VERA GEL !

EAST COAST PARK IS A FUN PLACE ! :D let's go next time ! :D

2009-06-06T08:56:00.002+08:00

mmm, good morning (: gahhs , i'm at work . . . work on a saturday :( i've been waking up super early everyday and i'm dead tired :( hoildays aren't like holidays.
lesson learnt, working is NOT fun alone. MUST work with friends. lol. working alone totally sucks. you don't talk much to anyone there and have to rely on games, msn and the phone.when's there's no one to entertain me , i head to viwawa but it's dead boring too. hmmm, it's not as if i've nothing to do now , but i srsly need some entertainment. i need someone to talk to. lol lol.
heh , kor , have fun in malaysia (: at that unknown place you're going. lol. mmm, thanks for playing with me on thursday. heh.

mmm, i wanna go to EAST COAST PARK to inline skate and cycle ! :D it's hard finding ppl to go with me though :( i need more girlfriends, gahh , i think i suck at making friends. lol.

sigh , i really wanna go for CO camp. it seems so so fun !! but i can't go on monday and wednesday . . then tuesday go also not much point cause i don't think i can stay over :(
gahhs , i hate it when ppl tell me i look like those who play intruments, esp CO intruments. and my boss said that. rawr.

mmm, okays , back to work ! D:

2009-06-03T21:03:00.001+08:00

YAY ! ! he's back (:
lol. anw, the 2nd day at work was much better. there were things to do ( at least a little more ) and i read The Crucible. it's weird and not easy to read luh ! mmmm, so sad that i gotta work on friday :( sorry vic. actaully can go play ball de , then angela told me i had to go back even though siew lian said i didn't have to :( i have to go back to owrk on saturday too. ugh.

mmm, i wanna go to the suntec game exhibition !

i should start hiong-ing the holiday homework !
yes , someone please motivate me to do so.

gahh , off to maple now. lol. vic , here i come ! :D

2009-06-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

MY FIRST DAY AT WORK AT NTU .
thanks papa for fetching me there and waiting with me (:
went to n3.1 then went to the office at canteen 2. lol. the office was this old old old place. lol. it wasn't the kind that i would have enjoyed working in but it was alright. the people were rather nice. mmm, then i sat there for an hour listening to them talk . . . then finally i had something to do ! lol. photocopy stuff , traced stuff then arranged stuff. when i was done. . . i sat there for 1.5 hours. was msging msging msging. lol. then i had lunch with the office ppl. btw , it's a really small office and there were only 3 ppl in the office. lol. then we all had lunch tgt with another man who was kinda friendlier. lol. but still , it was boring. had fried rice for lunch and EWWW! there were are onions in every spoon i took. YUCKS ! then went back to the office. listened to them talk. . . sat there for 1.5 hours. then i had to file something. then i finished filing in 10 min then i sat there for another hour. . then siew lian went to do some site checking and i could use her com. lol. so i went blog hopping , resetting my viwawa password , watched xia xue's guide to life and blahs. i got really tired and decided to read my physics notes. WHOA. so hardworking right. lol lol. after reading for 15 minutes, i fell asleep :D lol.
~the first day of work is really really damn slack. it's kinda good money. lol.

anw , HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING SIANG ! :D
if you read this (:
and although it wasn't intentional , thanks for talking to me while i was so bored at work.
thanks eunice too. and whoever msged me. lol.

2009-05-31T18:49:00.002+08:00

watched TOP GIRLS last night at dbs arts centre, it was not bad, but i couldn't find the link in the whole play. lol. nonetheless , it was funny (: hahs, then vic feel asleep at the last part. lol, i think the first part was the most most boring part. didn't understand it at all.
heh, eunice was hilarious !!!!!!!!!!! lol, have some confidence please ! you look great kays ! but she's like super careless - the chopsticks. LAUGHS ! :D
&. claudia ! send us the pics ! NO DELETING ! NO EDITTING YOUR FACE AWAY ! NO HEARTS TO COVER YOUR FACE !
had a great time with cid group mates :D
loves.
hmmm, thank you, eunice for walking all the way with me , and accompanying me. heh (:
and stop reading my msges, got NOTHING to read ! (:

heh, and thank you for sending me home even though you don't live near and you're very tired after work and it was after the last bus and train. sorry sorry sorry.
hope you'll be back soon. <3

kor, you matter lots kays. don't think too much. and live life happily ! :D
mei loves you <3
cheers.

2009-05-28T20:40:00.004+08:00

hmmm, blog about ytd (:
went to watch night at the museum 2 with sr and vic ytd. was actually supposed to have 2d outing i think. but 2d'07 is such a loser class. no one actually cares, so oh wells. forget it. heh. then anw i was happy with vic and sr (: night at the museum was funny :D though i almost fell asleep at the beginning. mmmm, but i still prefer night at the museum 1.
anw, ytd was cross country.
yay ! MINOTAUR WON AGAIN

anw, mr zong claims i am bimbotic. I AM NOT ! i've got brains lar. at least i didn't fail a single subject and i don't get Cs on my progress report. lol lol. mmm, got back progress report today. guess it's okay if i don't compare with the class. heh. the comments are satisfying though (:
'Zhen Zhi is a very bright student with a very cheerful personality. She is an eager learner and will not hesitate to clarify her doubts with teachers. In class, she is attentive, on task and prompt in her assignments. Zhen Zhi is capable of better results and she should continue to work hard for her studies.'
not bad right ! lol. i dunno why mr zong has such impressions of me. heh :D

lol, i swear i'll watch boys over flowers during the holidays ! heh, i think the guy acting the character that vaness acted is cute :D apparently vic says he looks like mr bean. lol.

mmmm, now i dunno to work or not to :(
there is like effing lots of holiday homework and things to do. GAHHHHHHHH ! rv is like this damn stressing school. it's like so so so kiasu, and it's making me wanna die. sigh.
and my teacher is ridiculous. he's so idiotic ! now we have to do a new assignment with the old and new qns by tmr 8am. wth lar. he seems to pms once every week. even girls don't do that !

heh, i like CID days (: but if i work during the hols , i don't think i'll be able to go :/ then i won't be able to go for all CO sessions- 3 times a week and won't be able to play bball with vic and friends :( and i'll be so busy that i won't have time to go out to play at all. and i won't be able to accompany my grandma too.
gahh , what are the holidays for ! for us to slack and play, but there's like hell lots of things to do :( cry ! :'(

heys evilprince, don't be angry with me. i'm sorry sorry. lol. i'll go find you out to inline skate with me someday. lol. don't be pissed !

i need people to talk to. lol.

***
someone, save the north-koreans please.

2009-05-25T20:19:00.003+08:00

lol, the korean craze.
victoria is crazy bout korean dramas, songs and actors. lol.
i should go watch boys over flowers, do re me fa so la ti, and i forgot what shows vic told me bout. heh, then i can go crazy over those cute guys too.
yes, i'm noob and lag... lol. i wanna watch gossip girl. i haven't watched it :(
these are what i'm gonna do during the holidays. watch gossip girl , watch korean dramas, work and then shop :D
vic , SAVE SAVE SAVE ! we shall go shopping (:

back to school,
mmm, physics prac test is so so so damn hard ! ! ! :(
me is prepared to fail !

heh , i'm waiting for eunice to come online then she'll send me the url of some hokkien song which she totally adores.
lol, she is crazy over korean dramas , but she's totally crazy over hokkien songs too.
laughs (:

mmm, anw , we got to know our GPAs today. the standard of 4E is like omg, damn high - at least to me. . . sigh sigh sigh.

ugh. why can't we just be good friends. gahh :(

2009-05-24T19:52:00.007+08:00

i want photoshop !
someone please find the photoshop programme for me (:
i'm sorry if i caused it.

2009-05-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

roxanne , i will miss you alot alot alot.
i'm realy sorry that i haven't been a really good friend.
but yes , i do love you lots.
we all don't want you to go :(

2009-05-23T23:50:00.002+08:00

thinking back . . .
when i was p3, she used to bring me around, play games with me. . .
the last time i saw her was last year.
she passed away ytd morning. it was so sudden. she was well and healthy. her child is only 5 months old. she's only 33 years old.
life is so unpredictable.

i must treasure all my beloveds.
i don't want any of them to leave me :(

2009-05-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

3 CHEERS to zhenzhi for finally posting ! :D
yepp, my blog is finally not dead (: exams are over ! since last monday (: anyway , it's been like 2 weeks or so since i last touched the com, such a long time right.
hmm, so we've been getting back our results and slacking in school, but lessons are starting :( oh wells, results are alright and it's back to the old hectic life. :(
people , i'm sorry that i always can't meet up kays, i'm really kinda busy. lol.
monday- lessons till late.
tuesday- cca
wednesday- piano lesson
thurdays- AWARE
friday- cca
as for the weekends, it's usually packed with i don't know what. heh.
i'm sorry.

thank you, eunice for buying me EYECANDY ! :D
so sweet of you, the sweets are really nice ! (:

tablemate, don't emo.

hmmm, i had alot to blog about initially bout now, since i'm on the phone, i shall not (:

yes you, where's my chocolate ?! (:

2009-04-24T21:21:00.003+08:00

HARDCORE MUGGING TIME !
mid years in a weeks time. GRAHH ! D: D: D:
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE !

hmmm, i love RVCO forever and always. although we didn't achieve our goal; gwh, we tried hard. we'll work harder and do better next time. this post is kinda late. heh. be strong and work harder after all those tears the we've shed. SMILE ! (:

i wanna thank Eunice, Victoria, Chi kan and last but not least my ex-tablemate which i still call as tablemate for making my life in and out of school enjoyable. lol. there are still many others whom i wanna thank but i can't name all.
anyway , i LOVE you all , my beloved friends (:

PS : sorry to those i've neglected esp those whom i didn't reply your messages. been tires, busy and blahs. . sorry.

2009-04-02T21:28:00.006+08:00

TESTS are OVER ! ( only this week)
bio test ytd . . alrights. phy test today , seemed alright , but then again is it ? i don't know. got stressed till i dropped a tear or 2. lol. hmmm, cpk like sent us out. sigh. what if we never get to attend chem lessons anymore. sorry for talking. esp to tablemate ~
napfa 2.4 run tmr ! gahh ! i'm gonna like take 17.1 min , it's a D. since i alrdy got a silver cause of damn sit and reach. sigh , i can't stretch ;( or maybe i could but the stupid girl didn't let me continue. it's just 1cm ! lol. okays , i got D for sit and reach and got A for the others and B for standing broad jump. gahh. casue of the D , i got silver , so i shall not bother bout running !
i hate running !
sianzxzxz , monday maths test. thursday chem test. lit test is next week too D:

anyways , pulau semakau today ! :D it's so DAMN FUN! :D

the ferry ride to pulau semakau (:

the sky and the sea (: from the upper deck of the ferry.

jillian & i (:

rachel . me . jillian . eunice :D
the view is SO PRETTY !

me & eunice. i look retarded ! ;)

jillian doesn't wanna get off me !
heh , she's hopelessly pretty. sadly , she doesn't allow me to post her pics casue she claims they are spastic and unglam. haha (:

at pulau semakau offshore landfill (:

lol, emo emo emo.

me & rachel (:

eunice & i (:
the sea is SO SO PRETTY ! :D

mr zong and i ! :D lol, coconut tree - like an indian couple. ( mr zong said that ) haha ! :D

you can't see our faces , but it's the 4 of us again (:
rachel , me , eunice , jillian.

SO NICE RIGHT !

haha , we were making funny faces. you can't see ! :D but we look tall ! :D

haha , the cute little flower is covering my face.

mr zong ! :D

mr zong and his supposed to be sir stamford raffles pose. haha (:

this is the long and emo streth of never ending road which i wanted to emo and take photos at ! but we didn't have the time :( SADS !

on the ferry ride back to mainland singapore (:

we didn't take photos , but had a really LAUGH OUT LOUD time ! hahaha ! ! ! !
the announcements were so funny though i kinda pity them. hehe.

the only photo taken

my tablemate and me (:
sigh , i had to force him to take this photo with me, with the help of mr zong. haha.
i look retarded , but yc looks worse ! :D

conclusion of the trip (:

pulau semakau is a landfill where all the wastes of singapore are dumped at. it's the first and only offshore landfill that is built from the bottom of the sea. it is a somewhat man-made island !
and it is HELL PRETTY ! ! ! :D
i wanna go there to camp and bbq as a class outing ! it totally ROCKS !

2009-03-29T23:39:00.003+08:00

hello (: watched unborn ytd ! DAMN SCARY ! i think i am a scare-dy cat ! :D haha, anw , i was totally freaked out and almost cried. laughs.

we can't travel back in time.
i don't know what's left -
forgiveness doesn't mean i can accept it all over again. maybe it'll never be the same.
but who am i to say i forgive. haha.
regardless, i am sorry.

kor , whatever it is , mei loves you.
sorry for neglecting you and not having time to spend with you.
maybe i didn't make the effort. but i will try my best kays.
LOVES YOU LOADS !

Happy Birthday to you ,
Happy Birthday to you ,
Happy Birthday to Eunice ,
Happy Birthday to you ! :D

Eunice Siow Yee Ning, you are officially 16 and you're 1 year older then i am.
haha, i lurbzxzx you , old woman (:
lol. seeya tmr (:

2009-03-26T21:17:00.003+08:00

CID today (: haha, we had a great time ! :D
i love gossiping (: heh , esp with vic and eunice . hmmm, and eunice , stop stressing me ! i really dunno what to get you for your birthday. ARGH !

victoria , be happy.
no matter what , i'll always support you ! :D

ohh , and i am actually enjoying my school life in 4Etc ! seemed impossible to me, but i am actually feeling happy (: haha. although i may want some ppl to be changed, haven't spoken a word to some or may not really like the studying environment and stress teachers and ppl give us , i am actually starting to like 4Etc alot alot. haha.
hip hip hurray to my class :D
lols. physics and maths are stressing me ! :( :(
and lang arts lessons never fail to make me feel super pissed with guys. wth ! how can they punish girls who got raped and are victims. . . kill them, with a smile - ' honour killings ' . they feel that it restores their freaking dignity -.- whoa, one can feel dignified to kill. lol.
there should be EQUALITY between the 2 gender ! :D
gender equality ! AWARE

lol, it's where i do my service learning project at.
i am getting lame tonight . heh (:
bye.

2009-03-25T22:36:00.002+08:00

FINALLY WENT OUT WITH SEOW RONG ! :D
sort of went out, though only for lunch. MISSED YOU SO MUCH ! (:

sch has reopened for only 3 days but it's like TORTURE ! lol, felt so tired in class. sigh. it's so tiring being a student. anw, i haven't been really completing my homework :( really gotta start studying for those testS coming up - bio,phy,chem. sigh. how long more till the next hols.

when one goes on for too long , she'll feel nothing. even when she thinks there's something , it turns out to be nothing. when her world is filled with nothingness what becomes of her ?
she says she can survive without love.
she says she'll still be happy.
but can she survive ?
will she be happy ?
when people seem to shower her with love and pamper her , she feels happy, but it this happiness true ?
is this happiness just passing by and will never last ?
when she has too many questions with no answers , who can she turn to ?
no one.
sometimes, she wants to feel loved and to love , to say 'iloveyou',
who can she say it to and truely feel it ?
if she doesn't feel, is she empty ? is she a bitch ? is she dead inside ? or is she just waiting ?

i love you.
the small little girl should be able to feel it.
:)

2009-03-21T22:13:00.004+08:00

hahs , backtrack backtrack.

finally watched ' he's just not that into you' on thurday. hahs , actually wanted to watch marley and me but the tickets were sold out. :( anw , it was rather nice , sweet (: but i don't like the seats in vivo cinema , the seats made my back and neck ache like crazy. the seats are so damn straight. hahs , anw , nicky don't emo anymore ! your hair is fine . . . lol.

woke up early to play basketball on friday with vic, rox, yl, ziqi and tie ning. hahs , quite fun :D but i totally suck ! and i had bad bad cough :( hmmm, and i'm tanned. become dark dark. hahs (: and i had SUBWAY ! :D again. heh. i LOVE SUBWAY ! then went for CO.
evil prince came back on friday too (: hahs, making me envious by showing me his loot. heh.
i missed you. i don't know why i did.
today, i didnt go for CO , cause i totally felt horrible , lost my freaking voice and kept sneezing :( i feel sick , sick , sick :(
i wanna meet you soon.
back to school on monday , UGH:( time to complete homework...got to remove the nail varnish :( :( sad sad.

anw , eunice , jia you for your piano exam on monday :D and i still dont know what to get for you on 30th march ! D:

2009-03-18T13:20:00.005+08:00

LAUGHS ! xia xue's guide to life is hilarious.
ep 6 - The Green Screen shows her starring as zhenzhi climbing out of the tv (:

lol.

2009-03-17T22:29:00.006+08:00

RVCO GOLD WITH HONOURS ! :D
what if i'm starting to fall for you ?

2009-03-16T10:55:00.006+08:00

my dumbass nice tablemate (: thanks for the toblerone
seeya soon (:

had a haircut on sat. i guess i look alright , though my mum claims i look bad. heh (:
heh :D went to bugis ytd and has a great time (: it was fun fun fun (:
had this tarot card reading and it says that i'm a very sensitive person who doesn't take the first move , but likes to wait wait and wait. i am very satisfied with whatever i have and my life now and i don't mind being alone sometimes - i don't need someone beside me 24/7. there are some unhappy things that i am still thinking about and i should forget them.
yepp (: that's all i remember.
ooo , and i watched dragonball evolution. hahs (: i cried -.- it's a little cheesy and lame sometimes but i think it's quite nice (: though the ending is . . .
anyways , i had a great time (:

hahs, victoria ! :D you sent me the concert pics (:
awww, don't be bored. if you can, let's go out kays ! :D loves you lots. seeya at CO. JIA YOU !

dancing lion, you are a huge bully ! and my name is not your amusement ! XP smoke less yea (: seeya.

evil prince ! enjoy your trip kays (: don't forgot to get stuff for me ! guess when you read this you'll be back alrdy. lol. anw, we'll meet again.yes we will. seeyao soon :D high fives, hugs.
hmmm, you smoke less too ! ;)

yes , i look retarded -.-
though i havent known them for long , they are great ! lol.

hsun, don't worry bout me. hahs. i'll always be fine , but thanks (: and good luck with . . . (:

eunice ! work hard for your piano exam ! :D JIA YOU ! have FAITH ! heh (: you'll pass with flying colours kays (: believe so , YOU CAN DO IT ! :D

co later. sigh.
bye ~

2009-03-11T18:10:00.002+08:00

GWAHH ! people CHEER UP ! emo-ing is bad for health. hugs hugs hugs.
eunice , chi kan, tzz, jia rong and everyone else , CHEER UP ALRIGHTS ! :D
i have decided to work hard after listening to assembly today - about university admission and jc stuffs. sigh. the promotion criteria is 3.0 gpa for year 5. ugh. no matter what , results will still seem sucky. rawr, only 3 subjects above average. sigh.
nevermind , zhenzhi doesn't emo :D i'll work hard ! :D and become a mugger ! :D
goals for year 4 :
make my portfolio better - join the council ! LOL !
get a gpa of 3.5 -.-
i wanna become a mugger (:

heh , kfc with victoria (: making my sore throat even worse. teehee. then we saw seow rong in the salon.
god, seow rong , i miss you hell lots ! hurry hurry , i wanna go out with you. it's been so long since we hung out tgt. RAWR ! save some time for me lar. don't always pei jj , and never save time for me ! and cheer up if you're unhappy bout your gpa kays, work harder next time (: iie lurrbxzxz euu lotxzxz !

red haired UNCLE ! :D only old ppl forget days kays ! dumb dumb . hehe. i'll spread it to you ! :D

people , JIA YOU ! (:

dumbs - i miss you all.
sihua , i wanna hug you ! lol.
alfreda , it's been so long since dumbs went out tgt ! rawr.
roxanne , don't emo kays. cheers (:
victoria , hahs , send me the pictures ! heh. loves (:
seow rong , SAVE TIME FOR ME !

2009-03-10T20:57:00.003+08:00

gahh , i'm SICK ! :( didn't go for cca today. went to the doctor's, waited for 1.h hours -.- then went to jp to send my phone for repairs then met tee then ate a lil at mos burger. sigh. yes , my phone has died ! :*( it will not turn on ! sigh :( hahs , BIG HAND MONSTER , YOU ARE SO LAME !
hahs , progress report tmr , argh STRESS ! D:

hmmm, eunice , cheer up kays ! :D don't emo anymore. don't think bout it !

RED HAIRED PRINCE! yes , i'm trying to keep my promise. haha (:
hmmm, i'm so sad i lost all the photos and i can't receive mms now. sigh sigh. anw , seeya ! hope it's soon. ohh , and send me the photos we took tgt sometime. thanks (:

oh yes , and i wanna thank my tablemate - yu yen cheng ! :D
thanks for being nice , helping me refill my bottle and waking me up. you changed. muahaha ! :D better than sec 2 (: hmmm, and thanks for letting me warm my hand. i'll try not to spread my viruses to you kays. (:

2009-03-08T22:10:00.007+08:00

NUS CO CONCERT yesterday (:

while cy was putting her eyelash back into place -.-
hahs (: i was on the phone with ck talking through my teeth.

lol, while cy is making her way into the photo.

cy is here at last, but nicole is gone !

kor and me (:

went to the nus concert ytd at nus cultural centre. it was alright i guess , a lil boring but still interesting cause the of the smoke that totally scared cl. haha (: half the songs played sounded like the ghost was gonna crawl out anytime. lol . scary !

hmmm, so i initially wanted to have supper with kor and kfc but it was closed so we ended up with fries and barcardi breezer lime (: and dumb kor didn't let me finish it. lol ! :D

then today played badminton with kor (: had a fun around the neighboor day (: hehe.
thanks kor , mei loves you ! :D

oh yes , victoria ! you pretty girl , send me the pictures we took kays (:

and ye bao shan ! see i included you kays , i am nice , though you haven't replied me , guess you're watching movies or partying like always , red haired party animal ! heh. anw, i'm really sorry that i always can't make it kays. must forgive me ! ! ! and i swear we'll see each other again. lol.
have fun ! :D

people , i love you all . (:

RV !

2009-03-05T21:45:00.003+08:00

the bball match was exciting (: though a little sad. oh wells. well done ?
hahs. anyway , i didn't fail chem that badly ! hmpf ! but overall gpa ain't that well done either. it's okay. sigh, when one is in an environment filled with elites , how does one feel ? duhh , stressed ! that's exactly how i'm feeling now. it's like, everyone whether you like it or not , whether is your buddy or not is comparing their grades. i do the same too, but people , don't you find it veyr tiring and stressful. i shouldn't belong to such an environment ! given my horrid reputation among teachers -.- sigh. why do teachers like to talk about me when there are people who have worse attire and stuff. i am just an average kid ! who holds no significance. so please , would you people stop.
anw, i've been rather busy these days so pardon me if i've been ignoring you people or something. hahs.

haha , and i've just done the personal global inventory which analyses your skills , interest gives you a list of occupations. hahs.
: lecturer, doctor, dietician , nutritionist, kindergarten principal, counsellor, pyschological something . . .

haha. i feel smart after looking at the jobs i am guided to get. lol lol.
i'll start working hard. WAY TO GO ! HOMEWORK ! :D
lol, byes (:

2009-03-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry , and touched.
but then again , thanks freda.

sorry.

2009-02-25T18:24:00.003+08:00

i love ikea meatballs (:
damn , i feel like a freaking bloated pig. shit :( i'm like supposed to be on save-money and dieting mode. after spending like 30 bucks on dumb stuff when it is like totally useless. sigh. i am such a splurge :(
i am officially in need of financial assistance.
thanks to eunice , i ran 6 rounds today FOR FUN ! lol. 6 rounds ! when i don't even really run with the teacher around . . . but i actually ran 6 rounds with eunice when she isn't around. i feel ACCOMPLISHED ! lol. i actually hate running (:
gahhhh. piano from 8-10 later. i wanna quit piano, or maybe i don't. but i definitely want a break from lessons, homework and tests. just 3 days ! 3 days will do ! 3 days of holiday with NO homework at all! it'll be like haven. heh.
having relatively nice attire doesn't mean i have character problems alright . ugh , teachers -.-

i wanna catch like a 101 movies :(
i wanna have 10 more hours a day.

2009-02-24T22:05:00.004+08:00

omfg. I HATE BEETLES ! there was this freaking beetle on my shirt which mr zong said was an ant. ARGH. i am beetle-phobic ! i saw that freaking beetle , started shrieking and jumping up and down, like a mad-woman -.- felicia thought i was jumping for joy . wth. victoria couldn't flick the beetle off , and i was jumping for like 3 min.
then , the heroines saved the day.
felicia came over : " relax relax, calm down " used her hands to try to pull the beetle off my shirt
beetle loves my shirt too much , refuses to let go.
edna: used her hands , tried to pull the beetle off too.
beetle loves my shirt TOO MUCH !
venus : " oi ! don't make lar, this is my favourite ! " uses her hands to pull the beetle off.
at last , beetle got off and flew to god knows where. i
i ran back to class, TRAUMATISED !
god , i hate beetles !

school was fine, had a great time talking crap with tablemates (:
and victoria , take care ! :D

whoa , i'm always under the eyes of spies -.-

2009-02-24T00:08:00.004+08:00

i once again feel the need to express. .
SIGH !
grown-ups when will you people understand the stressing life of us pitiful little insignificant students. since we are so small and insignificant, why does our grades affect you grown-ups so much.
tests :
23.02.09 - maths
26.02.09 - lang arts essay [please pray that i don't screw it]
27.02.09 - elit [fail?]
look at the number of tests we pitiful little kids have in the mere 5 school days.
pity me please.

the other billion stars are different.
maybe the star wasn't meant to shine on me.

emo shit.

2009-02-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

today , school till around 5.
sigh. lessons lessons lessons. didn't really sleep except during lang arts and till chem. i fell asleep at 3.15pm then got caught sleeping at 3.30pm. ugh. the teacher threw a freaking ruler at me. luckily it didn't hit me. heh, it dropped to the floor and i woke up. then he asked me to go stand outside the class. ARGH :( blah blah. stood for the later half hour of the lesson, then after that the teacher came out to tell me to drop chem and tell me how badly i scored for the chem test.
SIGH !
SIGH !
SIGH !

then maths, argh. carelss careless careless :(
okay , enough blabbering about school.
it caused to me to like go all emo from 4.45 till now. luckily there ain't homework today. hahs.
thanks people.
and , eunice , CHEER UP ! :D

when the star is gone, what's left ?