no one,

not even the one I thought did will understand how solitary I'm feeling.

I am happy for you, about the good things that you are experiencing.

Yet I am upset myself. Not because I am comparing with you, but it is a fact that I am not getting anything I strive for. I can't help but feel sad about my predicament when I listen to your experiences.

You say people don't get things their way, and that I'm spoilt cause I want things.

but, who doesn't. 

I am just not selfless. I wonder if I'm selfish or is it human nature. 

I am working hard too, maybe you think others work harder. However, do I not have the right to feel sad about myself being lousy? 

You may think it's stupid and ridiculous.

We are different and you never will understand me.

That constant longing for someone to understand and stand by me through these(that may seemingly be puny little pebbles to you).

I don't want that someone to be my parents cause I don't wish to worry them, neither do I expect them to understand the way I feel. I know they provide consolation, love, care and concern. But I know they will worry too.

I wish I had someone to talk to, just someone to listen to my problems, provide advice with no judgements. no affect. 

Someone who wouldn't make me feel lousier.

I wish I wasn't alone. 

TRUST

If there's no trust in the relationship

It is merely an empty shell. 

Without trust, one cannot devote time and true feelings 

Love, is handing one a gun and letting him/her decide whether to shoot. 

Yes, that is love. 

It is vulnerable, bitter sweet. 

Without trust, would you hand that person the gun? 

no.

when things like that happen, I know I may be at fault as well.
But I just wish that you could be a tad bit more understanding and a lil less ill-tempered.
it makes me wonder how long more can I give in to you and make the first move to apologise.
sometimes, what you think is right and the norm may not be the norm for others. don't expect others to think ir function is the same way as you do.
really,I'm willing to do my best and understand even give in, but don't make it a given and think that I have a problem for thinking otherwise. people are all different.
stop questioning me just cause of this difference between us.  

Summer // Nostalgia

So, i'm starting to miss summer despite it being the 2nd day of school.

Let's talk about today before i start on summer! 

Today was good cause finance was awesome. I really like my prof :D

uhmm, that's about it. School is pretty much the same everyday...

Now now, let's start on my awesome summer. 

The highlight of summer was definitely the US trip and Summer school in UBC. 

pardon the excessive number of photos in this post

NYC

just chillin' at Times Square

Madamme Tussards

Not exactly a fan of Robert Pattinson, but here's a cheesy pose

Expensive and meh tasting hotdog bun!

Grand Central Terminal

We're PIGS. oink oink

Our yummy Breakkie

Times Square at night!

Mandatory middle-of-times-square shot

 

We love being stupid together

Rockefellar Center

you're not alone;

Niagara Falls

Took an AMTrack train to this awesome place. 

It was a 9 hour ride there, and a 10 hour bus ride back (which was hell, btw) but niagara falls was really worth it. I'd recommend it to anyone who is touring US/Canada. Definitely worth the time and money spent. 

No amount of words and pictures can show my love for this place! 

oh, and it has to be the CANADIAN SIDE. It's much nicer!

There you go, the prettiest view I've ever seen
Behold, Niagara Falls

Beautiful falls with constant rainbows

I will always love you

ICE CREAM NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME HAPPY!!!!

&. WE BOTH GOT BALLOONS

the simplest things, make us the happiest people

this crazy beautiful husky!!!!!!!!

swag

 The story of the dandelion:

I went like "OMG, there's a dandelion!!!! " & L, being the really sweet boyfee, climbed up this really high rock to pick it for me. He then jumped down with it, and of course, all it's spores flew away! 

His face was so damn epic, i couldn't help but burst out laughing LOLOLOL. 

I told him he was really stupid, but deep inside i thought he was really cute and it was the best moment of my trip :)

yes, he picked another one for me to blow (just like in Enid blyton books) 

I really love Dandelions. 

They're so whimsical

~

Back to NYC

hello there, I'm back in NYC and clearly the weather here pales in comparison to Niagara falls. 

Had this great meal at 'The Mermaid Cafe' which was at Greenwich, we walked sooooo long before finding it. But it's worth it, cause there were $1 oysters and we had 36 of them!!! 

My first time trying crab pot! The crab flew from the table to my seat while i tried to make my way to it's meat by hammering on it. Well, it was an interesting experience despite having to look silly in a bib. 

Phantom of the Opera

So, this sums up my pre-summer school trip in NYC and Niagara Falls.

Summer / / Nostalgia is to be continued......

probably when i have the time or when i feel nostalgic again.

It's time for bed

~

School

hello there 

It's been a really long time since i last used this blog. I never thought I'd use it again, but school is really stressing me out and I really need somewhere to rant and think through stuff.

A blog seems like an appropriate way (perhaps).

I'm currently a year 2 in SMU and it's by first day of school! 

Haven't been doing very well for the first two sems, hence I'm so goddamn stressed out now. 

Some may say that I'm still young, but others might have already chosen their career paths, completed their internships and may have even gotten awesome pawsum connections.

sigh. I don't want to rant, but i really need to. 

I'm thinking of signing up for talks and all, but then again, what are the odds that i can actually get into banks given my sucky GPA. 

Sometimes i wonder if it's really necessary for me to get a high-flying job, ascend the corporate ladder, earn lotsa money. Isn't there more to life? 

I guess in Singapore, it's kinda the social norm, and also the expectations that all of us have to meet. 

Isn't being happy of utmost importance? 

Apart from all these stress and worries, I'm really thankful i met my happy pill in school :) 

He makes school a better place, and brings out the better me. 

I really want to use this first post (kinda) to thank him for all that he has done for me!

Wreck Beach- Vancouver BC

Thank you baby, for holding on, and leading me through various adventures and paths of life. 

I'm grateful for the awesome experiences we shared and will share during our time together. Summer was awesome with you, and I'm sure school would be awesome cause of you too. 

love you very much

x

hah! 

THERE! 

I just revived this blog ;o 

it's not bout the present, it's bout how you give it dude.

everyone in the house in sleeping.

great.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

GAHHHH!

I MISS KOREA

I MISS KOREA

I MISS KOREA

!!!!!! :(

i miss cwj too.
i like guys more after they go through army, but im hating SAF like mad now >:(