hello (: watched unborn ytd ! DAMN SCARY ! i think i am a scare-dy cat ! :D haha, anw , i was totally freaked out and almost cried. laughs.

we can't travel back in time.
i don't know what's left -
forgiveness doesn't mean i can accept it all over again. maybe it'll never be the same.
but who am i to say i forgive. haha.
regardless, i am sorry.

kor , whatever it is , mei loves you.
sorry for neglecting you and not having time to spend with you.
maybe i didn't make the effort. but i will try my best kays.
LOVES YOU LOADS !

Happy Birthday to you ,
Happy Birthday to you ,
Happy Birthday to Eunice ,
Happy Birthday to you ! :D

Eunice Siow Yee Ning, you are officially 16 and you're 1 year older then i am.
haha, i lurbzxzx you , old woman (:
lol. seeya tmr (:

CID today (: haha, we had a great time ! :D
i love gossiping (: heh , esp with vic and eunice . hmmm, and eunice , stop stressing me ! i really dunno what to get you for your birthday. ARGH !

victoria , be happy.
no matter what , i'll always support you ! :D

ohh , and i am actually enjoying my school life in 4Etc ! seemed impossible to me, but i am actually feeling happy (: haha. although i may want some ppl to be changed, haven't spoken a word to some or may not really like the studying environment and stress teachers and ppl give us , i am actually starting to like 4Etc alot alot. haha.
hip hip hurray to my class :D
lols. physics and maths are stressing me ! :( :(
and lang arts lessons never fail to make me feel super pissed with guys. wth ! how can they punish girls who got raped and are victims. . . kill them, with a smile - ' honour killings ' . they feel that it restores their freaking dignity -.- whoa, one can feel dignified to kill. lol.
there should be EQUALITY between the 2 gender ! :D
gender equality ! AWARE

lol, it's where i do my service learning project at.
i am getting lame tonight . heh (:
bye.

FINALLY WENT OUT WITH SEOW RONG ! :D
sort of went out, though only for lunch. MISSED YOU SO MUCH ! (:

sch has reopened for only 3 days but it's like TORTURE ! lol, felt so tired in class. sigh. it's so tiring being a student. anw, i haven't been really completing my homework :( really gotta start studying for those testS coming up - bio,phy,chem. sigh. how long more till the next hols.

when one goes on for too long , she'll feel nothing. even when she thinks there's something , it turns out to be nothing. when her world is filled with nothingness what becomes of her ?
she says she can survive without love.
she says she'll still be happy.
but can she survive ?
will she be happy ?
when people seem to shower her with love and pamper her , she feels happy, but it this happiness true ?
is this happiness just passing by and will never last ?
when she has too many questions with no answers , who can she turn to ?
no one.
sometimes, she wants to feel loved and to love , to say 'iloveyou',
who can she say it to and truely feel it ?
if she doesn't feel, is she empty ? is she a bitch ? is she dead inside ? or is she just waiting ?

i love you.
the small little girl should be able to feel it.
:)

hahs , backtrack backtrack.

finally watched ' he's just not that into you' on thurday. hahs , actually wanted to watch marley and me but the tickets were sold out. :( anw , it was rather nice , sweet (: but i don't like the seats in vivo cinema , the seats made my back and neck ache like crazy. the seats are so damn straight. hahs , anw , nicky don't emo anymore ! your hair is fine . . . lol.

woke up early to play basketball on friday with vic, rox, yl, ziqi and tie ning. hahs , quite fun :D but i totally suck ! and i had bad bad cough :( hmmm, and i'm tanned. become dark dark. hahs (: and i had SUBWAY ! :D again. heh. i LOVE SUBWAY ! then went for CO.
evil prince came back on friday too (: hahs, making me envious by showing me his loot. heh.
i missed you. i don't know why i did.
today, i didnt go for CO , cause i totally felt horrible , lost my freaking voice and kept sneezing :( i feel sick , sick , sick :(
i wanna meet you soon.
back to school on monday , UGH:( time to complete homework...got to remove the nail varnish :( :( sad sad.

anw , eunice , jia you for your piano exam on monday :D and i still dont know what to get for you on 30th march ! D:

LAUGHS ! xia xue's guide to life is hilarious.
ep 6 - The Green Screen shows her starring as zhenzhi climbing out of the tv (:



lol.

RVCO GOLD WITH HONOURS ! :D
what if i'm starting to fall for you ?

my dumbass nice tablemate (: thanks for the toblerone
seeya soon (:

had a haircut on sat. i guess i look alright , though my mum claims i look bad. heh (:
heh :D went to bugis ytd and has a great time (: it was fun fun fun (:
had this tarot card reading and it says that i'm a very sensitive person who doesn't take the first move , but likes to wait wait and wait. i am very satisfied with whatever i have and my life now and i don't mind being alone sometimes - i don't need someone beside me 24/7. there are some unhappy things that i am still thinking about and i should forget them.
yepp (: that's all i remember.
ooo , and i watched dragonball evolution. hahs (: i cried -.- it's a little cheesy and lame sometimes but i think it's quite nice (: though the ending is . . .
anyways , i had a great time (:


hahs, victoria ! :D you sent me the concert pics (:
awww, don't be bored. if you can, let's go out kays ! :D loves you lots. seeya at CO. JIA YOU !

dancing lion, you are a huge bully ! and my name is not your amusement ! XP smoke less yea (: seeya.

evil prince ! enjoy your trip kays (: don't forgot to get stuff for me ! guess when you read this you'll be back alrdy. lol. anw, we'll meet again.yes we will. seeyao soon :D high fives, hugs.
hmmm, you smoke less too ! ;)


yes , i look retarded -.-
though i havent known them for long , they are great ! lol.

hsun, don't worry bout me. hahs. i'll always be fine , but thanks (: and good luck with . . . (:

eunice ! work hard for your piano exam ! :D JIA YOU ! have FAITH ! heh (: you'll pass with flying colours kays (: believe so , YOU CAN DO IT ! :D

co later. sigh.
bye ~

GWAHH ! people CHEER UP ! emo-ing is bad for health. hugs hugs hugs.
eunice , chi kan, tzz, jia rong and everyone else , CHEER UP ALRIGHTS ! :D
i have decided to work hard after listening to assembly today - about university admission and jc stuffs. sigh. the promotion criteria is 3.0 gpa for year 5. ugh. no matter what , results will still seem sucky. rawr, only 3 subjects above average. sigh.
nevermind , zhenzhi doesn't emo :D i'll work hard ! :D and become a mugger ! :D
goals for year 4 :
make my portfolio better - join the council ! LOL !
get a gpa of 3.5 -.-
i wanna become a mugger (:

heh , kfc with victoria (: making my sore throat even worse. teehee. then we saw seow rong in the salon.
god, seow rong , i miss you hell lots ! hurry hurry , i wanna go out with you. it's been so long since we hung out tgt. RAWR ! save some time for me lar. don't always pei jj , and never save time for me ! and cheer up if you're unhappy bout your gpa kays, work harder next time (: iie lurrbxzxz euu lotxzxz !

red haired UNCLE ! :D only old ppl forget days kays ! dumb dumb . hehe. i'll spread it to you ! :D

people , JIA YOU ! (:

dumbs - i miss you all.
sihua , i wanna hug you ! lol.
alfreda , it's been so long since dumbs went out tgt ! rawr.
roxanne , don't emo kays. cheers (:
victoria , hahs , send me the pictures ! heh. loves (:
seow rong , SAVE TIME FOR ME !

gahh , i'm SICK ! :( didn't go for cca today. went to the doctor's, waited for 1.h hours -.- then went to jp to send my phone for repairs then met tee then ate a lil at mos burger. sigh. yes , my phone has died ! :*( it will not turn on ! sigh :( hahs , BIG HAND MONSTER , YOU ARE SO LAME !
hahs , progress report tmr , argh STRESS ! D:

hmmm, eunice , cheer up kays ! :D don't emo anymore. don't think bout it !

RED HAIRED PRINCE! yes , i'm trying to keep my promise. haha (:
hmmm, i'm so sad i lost all the photos and i can't receive mms now. sigh sigh. anw , seeya ! hope it's soon. ohh , and send me the photos we took tgt sometime. thanks (:

oh yes , and i wanna thank my tablemate - yu yen cheng ! :D
thanks for being nice , helping me refill my bottle and waking me up. you changed. muahaha ! :D better than sec 2 (: hmmm, and thanks for letting me warm my hand. i'll try not to spread my viruses to you kays. (:

NUS CO CONCERT yesterday (:


while cy was putting her eyelash back into place -.-
hahs (: i was on the phone with ck talking through my teeth.



lol, while cy is making her way into the photo.


cy is here at last, but nicole is gone !


kor and me (:

went to the nus concert ytd at nus cultural centre. it was alright i guess , a lil boring but still interesting cause the of the smoke that totally scared cl. haha (: half the songs played sounded like the ghost was gonna crawl out anytime. lol . scary !

hmmm, so i initially wanted to have supper with kor and kfc but it was closed so we ended up with fries and barcardi breezer lime (: and dumb kor didn't let me finish it. lol ! :D


then today played badminton with kor (: had a fun around the neighboor day (: hehe.
thanks kor , mei loves you ! :D

oh yes , victoria ! you pretty girl , send me the pictures we took kays (:


and ye bao shan ! see i included you kays , i am nice , though you haven't replied me , guess you're watching movies or partying like always , red haired party animal ! heh. anw, i'm really sorry that i always can't make it kays. must forgive me ! ! ! and i swear we'll see each other again. lol.
have fun ! :D

people , i love you all . (:

RV !

the bball match was exciting (: though a little sad. oh wells. well done ?
hahs. anyway , i didn't fail chem that badly ! hmpf ! but overall gpa ain't that well done either. it's okay. sigh, when one is in an environment filled with elites , how does one feel ? duhh , stressed ! that's exactly how i'm feeling now. it's like, everyone whether you like it or not , whether is your buddy or not is comparing their grades. i do the same too, but people , don't you find it veyr tiring and stressful. i shouldn't belong to such an environment ! given my horrid reputation among teachers -.- sigh. why do teachers like to talk about me when there are people who have worse attire and stuff. i am just an average kid ! who holds no significance. so please , would you people stop.
anw, i've been rather busy these days so pardon me if i've been ignoring you people or something. hahs.

haha , and i've just done the personal global inventory which analyses your skills , interest gives you a list of occupations. hahs.
: lecturer, doctor, dietician , nutritionist, kindergarten principal, counsellor, pyschological something . . .

haha. i feel smart after looking at the jobs i am guided to get. lol lol.
i'll start working hard. WAY TO GO ! HOMEWORK ! :D
lol, byes (:

i'm sorry , and touched.
but then again , thanks freda.

sorry.